Since the last post

Well, its been a while since the last post i.e last round of shouting at the world and quite a few things have happened. Its like the timing is apt since this post is almost at the end of the year. There are quite a few things that I want to write about and I have not really thought about it. So that would probably make this post a rambling post about events past. Anyways, here goes - not sure how long it is gonna take for me to finish this one :).

Well, to cut it short and state the two most important things that I am trying to think through and understand. When I came to India, where do I stay in Hyderabad and the other is getting married. Maybe I should tackle each in its own blog! Let see how I do the write up on this - if I am not happy, I will organize it well enough I guess. I need to shout out all the thoughts in my head if I am to enjoy this trip now!! You can guess which is the one issue thats eating me the most :D.

As for my trip here, the most important question I had when I came here was how will it be when I face my sister and her husband Kalyan? I did not know how I was gonna a react, how comfortable I was gonna be, how Kalyan is gonna be etc ... it has been a pretty interesting trip so far. In a few days since coming to Hyderabad, all of us, that is mom, dad, grandmom, sis, her hubby and myself went on this week long pilgrimage to TTD, near by places and Shiridi, near by place. It was very interesting because I got to know Kalyan and I am glad I got to know him. I like him a lot more than I expected.

He seems more mature for his age ... either because he talks a little as possible and only when absolutely necessary or when he feels he needs to say something. He is also fun to be around I think and he takes good care of my folks. More importantly though he seems to be taking care of my sis and seems to handle her idiosyncratic nature well enough. So I guess at least based on the information I have so far, I think she found a guy as well as can be found. I am glad she is happy and there is a big potential for their future. I am glad!!

As for the other part of this story, there is so much I need to say out loud i.e. shout out that is if I am to retain my saneness. Well, I guess I should start at the beginning. It started roughly about a year ago when I decided to go down the arranged marriage route due to various reasons, which I wont get into in this blog :). I did the usual things that everyone does once started down this path. Create a TM profile, add pics, send interests, get paid membership etc etc. I talked to a couple of girls but I did not feel like they were interested in me. Then I met someone that I liked, I mean I really liked this person in a way that I never expected to. It started with a reply from this girl in early September. We started to talk on the phone for a while and then I planned my India trip. Since I liked the girl and since I wanted to be able to do something about it while I am in India, I asked her if she would like to meet up before I go to India so I can meet her parents while I am here.

To my surprise, she said yes and she asked me to come over for a whole weekend instead of the typical half-day or a day meetup. I was pleasantly surprised by that but I was not sure what to expect. I was just praying that it wont be something that I will regret later on :). As it turned out my fears were baseless. She picked me up from the airport and then dropped me off at this stupid place called "Knight's Inn". It was a great weekend - we hung out together and went out Saturday night (Halloween weekend) dressed up. But the one thing I cant forget is that she was pretty late in picking me up Saturday morning :). She helped me pick an outfit and helped each other (sort of) get ready and hung out until late night! It was fun and interesting as well :). The interesting part is something that I might write about later (if I feel like it :D). Anyways, she dropped me off at my place and then met up the next day - again in my opinion, late :). That seems to be something thats part of her, not that I cared at that point. It would have been great if we met up earlier as that would have meant more time together :D.

Anyways, the bottom line was that by Sunday evening, both of us told each other that we liked each other and were wishing that the weekend could last another day longer! Then it was constant chatting on the phone/texting etc for the next couple of weeks until I got to India. It was unbelievable two weeks for me! It was also one of the most stressed out times I guess since I was buying a house and trying to wind up all the stuff that I was asked to do at work. I am not sure even to this day how I managed all that. Bottom line is I finished more than I expected at work and also managed to buy the house while not in the country! I stayed for a day in Singapore with Priya as well. It was constant chatting with Nivvi while I was in Singapore! Then I came to India and it was Sree's wedding in a few days. Hung out with my folks at my sister's place and went to meet Nivvi's folks. It was nice meeting them and all - it seemed to me like they liked me and all at that time. Then it was off to the wedding to catch up with friends!! It was great catching up with various ppl from the past and get to know new ppl :).

All this while Nivvi and I are trying to steal moments to catch up with each other. It was a great time!! Then I went home and it was off on this pilgrimage from that day or the next day on. It was to TTD first and a few places nearby. Then to VJA and off to Shiridi and back! All this while still trying to steal moments but it was hard due to various reasons. Then came back to Eluru and Nivvi's folks came by. Thats when things started going downhill :(. I did not know that was just the beginning at that time. Even if I knew, I am not sure there was something I could do to have prevented the downhill nature of it :'(. She was mad at me for making her call me :(, then it was like she was cool for a while. I did not understand what was going on but my feeling was that her parents did not like our place and were not too enthusiastic about me.

I had to speak to her for hours together at one point of time for her to open up and then close down on me again. At this point, in my opinion, it looks like I am the one interested in her than it being both ways! It is a extremely painful realization. I did not expected this to happen but I guess I should have anticipated this - what else could I expect! Ride off into the sunset together or happily ever after? Thats all in books, movies and fairy tales!

Life somtimes can take some crazy turns!

I guess the title can speak for itself but lately something happened that I did not think would happen for any reason what-so-ever - I trusted some people in my life, people that I would have bet my life with, people I expected would never act the way they did. I am not say I blame the person who did these things - all I am saying that I never expected those things to happen. You gotta do what you gotta do! I can understand why the person did the things she did ... but the question is can I ever trust her again?

I sound like a mystery writer, like I am trying to create a bit suspense - what happened and who is this person that I am talking about. Thats not the point ... the point is I never ever expected this person, of all the people in the world, for whom I would give up my life, to do whatever she is done. She is none other than my sister - she put my parents and myself through misery ... I just hope that whatever she got in return is worth what she gave up in return ... and that she is happy always!!!

Its been a while since I could even bring myself to look at these pages even ... so many memories in so many posts and drafts (that I might never publish). Its been nostalgic reading them after a long time ... yes, I believe the last post was way back in 2007 and that's a really long time. I am not sure what brought me back but here I am typing this up late in the night when I am supposed to be completing my presentation for work for tomorrow. Or rather it is more of a report rather than a presentation.

I am actually filling in a draft that I have started back in 2008 but I couldn't even find a single word in the post - not sure what was going through my mind at that time. But here I am a year later typing away furiously or at least that's how it seems to be. I can't describe the time that has passed by ... I have been through so much that I am not even sure where to start. I know that's how it seems to most people but then this time has special significance for me. As always this was a greatly troubled time for (still is in many ways and has been for a while) and I am surprised I even turned out the way I have. Its way too late and I will have to continue this random flitting of my mind across the past another time ... time to hit the sack or whatever the expression is now a days for going to bed. I hope that this post is indication of more to follow instead once in a blue moon kind of posts.

Making up for the promise broken ...

I made a promise to keep this blog updated and have not taken a look at it since January ... there are reasons for that but then I would not get into them because I could have made time for it and I did not. Lots of things happened since then and I dont even know where to start.

I lost my motorcycle or rather had it stolen from my office parking lot and am still settling with my insurance companies ... God knows when then whole thing will end. I have purchased a replacement motorcycle and I dont know how I will make the payments for those and I dont know how the whole process is going to settle. I am just praying that I did not get myself into a deep mess.

But then I have added another love to my long list ... or rather never ending list. Somehow I always seem to be in love. I know that its a wonderful thing but I also got to know that heartbreak is a terrible thing and it can take a long time before you can accept somethings ... hope nothing bad is going to happen to me. Anyways, pessimism aside, I have a few photos of my lastest and me ... I still can not keep my eyes off her (though I am not sure if that is how I should be referring to it :D).

Like they say, a picture speaks a thousand words. I hope everything works out well.

What is it about motorcycles that makes me go crazy ...

Hmmm ... that is a tough one to answer.

The feel of wind on the face ...
The rush of adraline ...
The sheer feeling of being free ...
The open space in the front ...

I probably could go on and on ... there are so many things about motorcycles that are so great ... I wish I could learn about the engines and the make of the motorcyles - the design of the machine, the beast that I have come to admire and love!

I was looking about the engines on the internet the other day - two stroke, four stroke, Otto cylce and many other cycles along with steam engines, 16 cylinder, 22 cylinder and jet engines too - I found a website that had animations for the different kind of engines available. It was wonderful getting to know what a cylinder is, what a valve is, what two stroke and four stroke means.

There was this website that had some information about a motorcycle technician - it costs more than 500 bucks - I wish I could do that course. I am spending so much money that I did not want to spend on this now. Maybe after a while - when I have saved up enough money. I wish one day I could learn more about these things. Life could be more interesting. Anyways off for the night. Good Night everyone!

My lastest love and me ...

Its been a week since we started going out and all I can say its been great so far and I have been riding a little rougher than I would like! I should handle it more carefully and more softly I guess but it might be a while before I get there - the bike loves being rev'd and the sound is music to my ears. Can not wait for it to be run in completely.

The jacket, the gloves and helmet are still problems but I kind of seem to be getting used to them. I am not stalling the bike any longer - I guess I am now paying attention to my baby! :) Maybe after it is run in completely I can take it to a racetrack - wouldnt that be nice?!

First motorcycle ride in US ...

Its been a great experience ... my sweet bike!! I went out with my friend Krishna Mohan - he was taking me out ... to allow me to get used to driving and be comfortable. It was fun ... we were driving for more than hour ... and in a way it was huge pain too - with the gear and all ... It was so painful using the gloves, helmet and the jacket - the jacket weighs quite a lot and my hand was aching from changing the gear (using the clutch) and the wind was too strong along with the fact that I feel like I am being thrown off the bike (those speeds) - the engine did not have to be reved beyond 3000 rpm - the helmets fogs from my breath at every signal that I stop at ... all in all inspite of all these it was an enjoyable experience. I loved it and the good thing to this is that I am kind of comfortable with the bike. The clutch seems to have some play and I was stopping the bike at almost every singal ... it was very bad - could be the clutch or the gloves that is preventing me from doing it right. Hope I can get this right from the next time I ride with the bike and all ... I am planning to take it out to office on Tuesday - lets see how that goes. Also I need to get the lowjack and alarm system installed - have to get an appointment and see when I can get that done. At the end of the day, I had to drive to San Jose - my hands were aching and I was very tired too ... but I made it safely a little before one in the wee hours.